It is what it is...

Life is what it is... I guess. We have ups, we have downs. Some more than others. Is tomorrow the begining of an up or a down. I guess depends on how I look at it.

David is taking me up to Good Samaratin Hospital in Los Gatos (1 1/2 hour north) tomorrow. I have surgery at 7:30 am on Tuesday. This will be the second time I've had this surgery (yet this time there is a bit more to it). I had the same surgery last January 23rd. So two in a 12 month period. What is the surgery for? Nothing major, let's just say it's some clean-up from when I brought my son into this world. And apparently I haven't found someone who can do it right the first time. Sigh... oh well. It is what it is. I guess, in the hopes that this is the last time I have this procedure done, tomorrow is the begining of an up. 

So Christopher is staying with my parents Monday night, then I'm in the hospital overnight Tuesday (where no kids are allowed) and will be home sometime Wednesday night. Two nights away from my little man. Sigh...

I'm not happy about the surgery, but at the same time, I'm glad it's getting done... by a specialist... done right... and for the last time (**crossing fingers**). So my "new start" for 2010 really is a new start.

Thinking back to this time last year, I wish I could take back what I said. You always wonder what the new year will bring, if it will be better or worse, eventful or boring, different or the same than the year before. 2008 was hands down our most amazing year in our "almost" eight years together. Yes... eight... We got pregnant, we bought a house, we had Christopher, we had wonderful jobs... I remember thinking that 2009 was going to have to be pretty spectacular to beat that. Well, it was spectacular all right, but a bit more in the opposite direction. Not a great year, but still much better than some. Well, this year. No anticipation to how much better 2010 will be, no being nervous it could be worse (**knock knock)... it is what it is. I think that will be my saying for o' ten :) "it is what it is". Not to sweat the small stuff, to let drama roll off my back, to be positive in the face of negative. If you know me, this is no small feat. But... it is what it is.

2010... will be what it will be...